There are always changes in life. I think that Christmas time is a time to review your life and appreciate the great things that have changed your life. I am grateful for the people in my life. I really believe people are brought into your life to teach you something. Everyone has something to teach someone else. My coach teaches me that strength is more a mental game than a physical one. My partner teaches me patience (anyone who knows me knows this is not my super power). One of my friends that I work out with teaches me that it is ok to start over. There are countless others who teach me humor, love, respect, and hope. I can only hope that I am able to share my creative outlook, humor, and grace to others.
Yes it has been a while since I went to the gym but I am getting back into it. I did complete the challenge and lost 15 pounds. I am trying to keep up with it but it is not always easy in the holiday season. I walked in this morning to cookies sitting at my desk which of course is my weakness. Ice cream is another one of my weaknesses. So I ate a cookie for breakfast which, as I have stated many times, it contains everything I was going to eat for breakfast. Then my Jewish friend brings in Almond cake. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! Looks like I picked the wrong week to stop eating wheat. So yes I ate a slice of cake. I mean if you are going to go off the wagon you might as well go big. I have been doing CrossFit for a year now and I love it. I have gotten pretty strong and my clothes fit better so it has been a big help. I do apologize for the lack of writing but I have been busy at work (yeah I know, how rude). I hope to write more later this week but we will see. If not, have a happy Chanukkah, Merry Christmas, Funky Festivus, Krazy Kwanzaa, and the best Boxing day. Until next time, cheers!
One of the best lessons I have learned is that you have to believe in yourself or no one else will. People say it but they never explain it. Here is what I have learned. You have to believe in yourself and realize that all those feelings you have, anger, peace, love, hate, frustration, guilt, all of it is just a feeling. At the end of the day that is all it is. What you do with it is what makes you who you are. Fear can destroy you and can lead to anger which can lead you to frustration. So how do you deal with that? Wow, glad you asked. It is not easy but I realize that it is just a feeling. Nothing comes out of it until I act or don’t act on it. You have to ask why do I feel this way and how do I keep it or change it. When I feel fear I try to figure out why and push through it. Fear is an odd feeling and one of the few that really limit us. Anger and other negative feelings are similar. You have to figure out why you feel that way and change it. Here is one of the things I have started doing about once a week. I leave a positive note for someone to find or read. A few weeks ago I left one for a friend who was waiting for a decision. Last week I sent a note to someone who gives me a positive boost on a regular basis. To release the anger and negative pieces you have to find a way to find that inner peace and quiet the mind so you can see a way through.
As always my time working out has been my calm. Yeah it sounds weird but when I lift or run or even walk with the dog it sets my mind to quiet. I focus on my body, my form, what is happening around me and finally I settle in a place where I actually zone out. Yeah I zone out and I can usually solve some big questions in my life. Sometimes that is work sometimes it is personal but that moment of resolution and that time for reflection is so important. What I have seen over the past few weeks in doing the Whole Life Challenge is that I do not think I can eat sugar, wheat, or corn like I used to. I have felt better, healthier and oddly I feel mentally stronger than I have in a long time. Eric Thomas said it best “One day will be your day. One day can’t be your day if you give up. If you quit no day will be your day.” So don’t ever give up on yourself. You can be your hardest critic but you can also be your biggest supporter. So you quit before; well that is just an opportunity to start again. Figure out why did you quit? Once you answer that question then you can learn for that and move on. Every beginning is the end of something. What will you end to start again?
This was a tough week. I am still gluten free and will be decreasing my dairy intake. I have set a challenge for myself, 6 weeks on an altered Paleo diet. I feel better without gluten in my diet and I am hoping that it will make me stronger. I have found that last week I really enjoyed spending time and taking pictures with Coach Keidy and I think I can get better at it but I feel like I am at a good starting point. Here are a few words of encouragement that I hear over and over in my head this week. Surround yourself with great people because they will push you to be great. This was clear when we were running this past week and I see these fighters that I call friends being stronger than me and pushing me to be greater than I think I can be. I see greatness in all my ladies and they push me to be better than I was yesterday. Sometimes I get to return the favor and push them to see the greatness in themselves (you must find your inner Wonder Woman). The second set of words of encouragement is this; if you cannot grow then you cannot become your best and if you are not your best then how can you really be happy. It will be a tough journey to grow, it hurts and it is hard work but if it was easy then everyone would do it. Life is about being uncomfortable with where you are. If you get comfortable you stop growing and you have stopped pushing yourself. Life is about failing. If you are scared of failing you will not become the best you can be. Failing means you pushed yourself to the edge. You become a fighter when you fail and you get up. Fail and then fail again and then again and again. It happens to the best of us. The strongest person I know failed. She failed over and over again but the reason she is so strong is because she got up every time she failed. Think of your Wonder Woman. Guess what, they were where you are right now. They all started. They all failed. I don’t know who they are but I know they failed. When you get up from that failure you learn about yourself. You see what you can do and where you can go, maybe not today but work. Do your assignment. Do your work. In that moment when you no longer fail, that’s the greatest feeling of them all. That’s what success feels like.
Now the work. Ugh, this was a tough week. I tried to give up a few times but I pushed through it and I feel awesome that I finished. I got shin splints which I get at the beginning of any running program but I iced my legs and I got lucky that the workout on Thursday really stretched my legs with the wall balls. I blazed through them because it felt amazing to stretch my legs. I see that I am getting stronger and it feels great. I am so close to a kipping pull-up that it angers me (like Marvin the Martian kind of anger). I will be working on these this weekend again at the regular gym. I am hoping to enter the battle of the sexes at the box to see who is stronger. The workouts this week also included so many burpees with different jumps (burpee star jumps or burpee pull-ups) that it was horrible. I am pretty sure burpees are a torture movement that they use to make prisoners talk. I mean I was willing to tell coach anything she wanted to know.
Until next week, keep up the good work and may the WOD’s be in your favor…
Well my bathroom scale has taken an adventure out the window and into the snow bank. I was surprised at how strong I have gotten this week as I did not know I could toss a glass bathroom scale that far. I am pretty sure this will be the next Olympic event, winter scale throwing for the annoyed dieter. Upon my review of the week I see that I should have stuck to the no weighing rule. Another pound gained and another sad girl eats cookies. NEXT! So I must move on. I am going with it is muscle gain and not fat but judging on number of cookies that were consumed (cookie monster would have been challenged to eat more), it is a good thing that the scale is now enjoying fresh air.
The box was pretty good this week. I have established a really good love/hate relationship with the trainer. She seems to be ok with this arrangement. I have also found a new outlet for my mathematical skills/hobby as well. This seems to be the one thing that I win at every time. “How many total reps” is followed by a long silence and I am always the first to pipe up. Next observation, Superman works out at my box. I am pretty sure it is Clark Kent. I see him in there every once in a while but I never pay attention until he was in my noon class. Well this just added insult to injury. We had to count the number of rounds plus any additional work. I was really proud of myself because the workout contained pushups which I actually like. I had done an even 6 rounds and thought “You did good buttercup”. The trainer called on Clark Kent to who yelled out “Ten rounds plus 6 pushups”. I looked at the girl next to me and said “I’m sorry did he say 10 almost 11 rounds?”. Yes he did. I would have knocked him over but I could not currently pull myself off the floor and I am pretty sure that would not be a battle I could win. I found out the next day that he did the most rounds for the day. That made me feel a little better.
Next week I am going to try to cut out snacking in the office. This is difficult as many people here in the office bring in food, have bowls of candy, and some jerk brings in donuts. Let’s continue down this path and see what this week brings… Good bye my sweet candy, I will miss you most of all…
Well I have not lost weight as of yet but I have learned the meaning of failure. There is a difference between failing and failure. Everyone fails, my goal is to fail but I will not be a failure. Failure is giving up. Seeing a challenge and saying “I can’t do that”. Well no longer will I define myself by what others think of me. I failed this week at Crossfit but I did not give up. Instead I got up, moved on, and learned from that mistake. I was able to go all 5 days this week and I felt fantastic about it. I did have pain and wanted to give up. I just kept thinking “I have come this far, I might as well finish”. With each section of work given this week (chin up’s, push ups, or burpees) I had Chevy Chase running through my head “This is crazy, this is crazy, this is crazy” but I made it though. I was last in the group sometimes but I was better than I was last week. This is hard. It is a challenge but I wanted to do this. For me. Not for anyone else. Not for my partner, the kids, or my parents. I want to be healthy and live longer than my partner. I will take this inch. as Al Pacino said in Any Given Sunday “You find out life’s a game of inches… The inches we need are everywhere around us. We claw with our fingernails for that inch. Because we know when you add up all those inches, that’s going to make the difference between winning and losing”. Yeah I just quoted a football movie but it is a good movie.