One of the best lessons I have learned is that you have to believe in yourself or no one else will. People say it but they never explain it. Here is what I have learned. You have to believe in yourself and realize that all those feelings you have, anger, peace, love, hate, frustration, guilt, all of it is just a feeling. At the end of the day that is all it is. What you do with it is what makes you who you are. Fear can destroy you and can lead to anger which can lead you to frustration. So how do you deal with that? Wow, glad you asked. It is not easy but I realize that it is just a feeling. Nothing comes out of it until I act or don’t act on it. You have to ask why do I feel this way and how do I keep it or change it. When I feel fear I try to figure out why and push through it. Fear is an odd feeling and one of the few that really limit us. Anger and other negative feelings are similar. You have to figure out why you feel that way and change it. Here is one of the things I have started doing about once a week. I leave a positive note for someone to find or read. A few weeks ago I left one for a friend who was waiting for a decision. Last week I sent a note to someone who gives me a positive boost on a regular basis. To release the anger and negative pieces you have to find a way to find that inner peace and quiet the mind so you can see a way through.
As always my time working out has been my calm. Yeah it sounds weird but when I lift or run or even walk with the dog it sets my mind to quiet. I focus on my body, my form, what is happening around me and finally I settle in a place where I actually zone out. Yeah I zone out and I can usually solve some big questions in my life. Sometimes that is work sometimes it is personal but that moment of resolution and that time for reflection is so important. What I have seen over the past few weeks in doing the Whole Life Challenge is that I do not think I can eat sugar, wheat, or corn like I used to. I have felt better, healthier and oddly I feel mentally stronger than I have in a long time. Eric Thomas said it best “One day will be your day. One day can’t be your day if you give up. If you quit no day will be your day.” So don’t ever give up on yourself. You can be your hardest critic but you can also be your biggest supporter. So you quit before; well that is just an opportunity to start again. Figure out why did you quit? Once you answer that question then you can learn for that and move on. Every beginning is the end of something. What will you end to start again?
So I am coming up on my one year doing CrossFit. I started going every week in January and I have been on the Whole Life Challenge for a few weeks now. So busy at work doing different things so I have not been able to write anything. I have a vacation day coming up on Friday (Yes I am that person that takes off Halloween). I have gotten worse with my asthma (having to take my inhaler several times a day). This has been almost a month now where I have had issues but I am going to see someone in November (apparently getting an appointment with a specialist is almost as difficult as getting in to see a dermatologist). The paleo diet/lifestyle had been helpful as I am down 10 lbs and I am still eating really good food like Sticky Chicken. Now mind you I did not go full blown paleo as I eat brown rice but just not with every meal. I also have a cheat day to reward myself. How do you do a cheat day? Glad you asked, you decide on a given day and plan ahead for what you want to eat and then life gets in your way and you miss it and then you see homemade biscotti that you mother sends and you yell CHEAT DAY and eat 4. Yes that’s right that’s what happened which of course frightened Gary but hey it is Halloween month! Things have been going great at the box and yesterday I went to the noon class worried I would have to work out with a herd of boys (I assume this is the punishment for missing the ladies class) but when I walked in my Yoga Instructor friend was there. I hadn’t seen her in a while and it has been months since we were in the same class. Then who walked in? Yeah Wonder Woman Jackie! Yes that is right I got to work out with Jackie. That has been even longer since Jackie and I were in the same class (she is usually in the class before the women’s class so I see her but don’t work out with her). I missed my little group and I was excited. Then the best news ever, the noon class was oddly going to be all women. Yeah that’s right Coach Keidy got a double dose of the ladies yesterday.
Anyways, I am hoping to take some photos on Friday and I will try to post them as it is fall in New England (I still argue that there are days that it looks like the original England so there is nothing new about it). I also got a photo printed in an actual magazine so I am hoping that trend continues as I would like to have a little income from my hobby (even if it is just to pay for equipment). Well here is hoping you have a spooktaclur Halloween and a grand Día de Muertos!
This past week was tough. I was tired, had a bunch of stuff to try and get through this week at home and on top of everything else, my partner (the stabilizing factor in my life) had to leave on a business trip. The last time he left I was attacked by flour, had a cat escape, and a few other odd things. The cats never go out the front door but Fred just decided “Well the tall chap is no longer here and I can’t take it so I must go out into the world and find him” (yes I believe my cat is British). I am still unclear as to why the flour attacked me but that feud has continued from that point forward. So before he left I was told I could not go into the basement for fear a ceiling tile will fall on my head (would not be the first time), food processer is off limits as is open fire (this has been a long standing agreement between him and my mother), and minimal time in the pantry. Of course because of my job I am always finding loop holes and I had to cook dinner. Seeing as how I am only 5’4, on a good day, cooking in my kitchen involves gymnastics. I had decided to try a Mongolian Beef recipe which called for a crock-pot on the top shelf which required a modified muscle up and a dismount. I managed that task pretty well and nothing weird happened like the fridge falling on me so I thought I was good to try to use a knife. All in all, this week was pretty much injury free, dismounts were AWESOME (sure the Russian judge might have given me a 5.7 but hey), and I got to eat all the foods that my partner hates. I did try to cut out candy with a few false starts early in the week but so far, 4 days without candy. I am also on my third week without wheat. I have started this week pretty well as I have my protein packs that taste like Mounds candy bars. The weather here has been horrible (rain almost every day) and it makes me just want to curl up on my sofa with the dog and sleep.
This week in training, well as stated above I was tired all week long. Even when I went to the box I was tired. Friday was a fun day (I felt like I was in middle school and we got to play dodge ball on Friday). We had a challenge of how fast can you row 500 meters and you have 3 tries. Of course I got my best time on the first effort (2:00 flat) but I got close on the third time with 2:03. I did not go to the gym this weekend as we had a baseball game for the boy (first one I have seen him play since he was in high school and he is now a senior). We also got rain free days on Saturday and Sunday so I wanted to spend some time with dog out in the yard. By Thursday and Friday I felt like I had more energy. Today I was tired again but I did not get to sleep until almost 11pm. Here is hoping that this week will be nicer for weather so I can start building out my vegetable garden outdoors instead of in the greenhouse. I also have a few items for the yard where I can use my newly found muscles (maybe push the stone fence back in place and maybe some clean up of the side yard).
Until next time, happy lifting…