There are always changes in life. I think that Christmas time is a time to review your life and appreciate the great things that have changed your life. I am grateful for the people in my life. I really believe people are brought into your life to teach you something. Everyone has something to teach someone else. My coach teaches me that strength is more a mental game than a physical one. My partner teaches me patience (anyone who knows me knows this is not my super power). One of my friends that I work out with teaches me that it is ok to start over. There are countless others who teach me humor, love, respect, and hope. I can only hope that I am able to share my creative outlook, humor, and grace to others.
Yes it has been a while since I went to the gym but I am getting back into it. I did complete the challenge and lost 15 pounds. I am trying to keep up with it but it is not always easy in the holiday season. I walked in this morning to cookies sitting at my desk which of course is my weakness. Ice cream is another one of my weaknesses. So I ate a cookie for breakfast which, as I have stated many times, it contains everything I was going to eat for breakfast. Then my Jewish friend brings in Almond cake. ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! Looks like I picked the wrong week to stop eating wheat. So yes I ate a slice of cake. I mean if you are going to go off the wagon you might as well go big. I have been doing CrossFit for a year now and I love it. I have gotten pretty strong and my clothes fit better so it has been a big help. I do apologize for the lack of writing but I have been busy at work (yeah I know, how rude). I hope to write more later this week but we will see. If not, have a happy Chanukkah, Merry Christmas, Funky Festivus, Krazy Kwanzaa, and the best Boxing day. Until next time, cheers!
One of the best lessons I have learned is that you have to believe in yourself or no one else will. People say it but they never explain it. Here is what I have learned. You have to believe in yourself and realize that all those feelings you have, anger, peace, love, hate, frustration, guilt, all of it is just a feeling. At the end of the day that is all it is. What you do with it is what makes you who you are. Fear can destroy you and can lead to anger which can lead you to frustration. So how do you deal with that? Wow, glad you asked. It is not easy but I realize that it is just a feeling. Nothing comes out of it until I act or don’t act on it. You have to ask why do I feel this way and how do I keep it or change it. When I feel fear I try to figure out why and push through it. Fear is an odd feeling and one of the few that really limit us. Anger and other negative feelings are similar. You have to figure out why you feel that way and change it. Here is one of the things I have started doing about once a week. I leave a positive note for someone to find or read. A few weeks ago I left one for a friend who was waiting for a decision. Last week I sent a note to someone who gives me a positive boost on a regular basis. To release the anger and negative pieces you have to find a way to find that inner peace and quiet the mind so you can see a way through.
As always my time working out has been my calm. Yeah it sounds weird but when I lift or run or even walk with the dog it sets my mind to quiet. I focus on my body, my form, what is happening around me and finally I settle in a place where I actually zone out. Yeah I zone out and I can usually solve some big questions in my life. Sometimes that is work sometimes it is personal but that moment of resolution and that time for reflection is so important. What I have seen over the past few weeks in doing the Whole Life Challenge is that I do not think I can eat sugar, wheat, or corn like I used to. I have felt better, healthier and oddly I feel mentally stronger than I have in a long time. Eric Thomas said it best “One day will be your day. One day can’t be your day if you give up. If you quit no day will be your day.” So don’t ever give up on yourself. You can be your hardest critic but you can also be your biggest supporter. So you quit before; well that is just an opportunity to start again. Figure out why did you quit? Once you answer that question then you can learn for that and move on. Every beginning is the end of something. What will you end to start again?
So I am coming up on my one year doing CrossFit. I started going every week in January and I have been on the Whole Life Challenge for a few weeks now. So busy at work doing different things so I have not been able to write anything. I have a vacation day coming up on Friday (Yes I am that person that takes off Halloween). I have gotten worse with my asthma (having to take my inhaler several times a day). This has been almost a month now where I have had issues but I am going to see someone in November (apparently getting an appointment with a specialist is almost as difficult as getting in to see a dermatologist). The paleo diet/lifestyle had been helpful as I am down 10 lbs and I am still eating really good food like Sticky Chicken. Now mind you I did not go full blown paleo as I eat brown rice but just not with every meal. I also have a cheat day to reward myself. How do you do a cheat day? Glad you asked, you decide on a given day and plan ahead for what you want to eat and then life gets in your way and you miss it and then you see homemade biscotti that you mother sends and you yell CHEAT DAY and eat 4. Yes that’s right that’s what happened which of course frightened Gary but hey it is Halloween month! Things have been going great at the box and yesterday I went to the noon class worried I would have to work out with a herd of boys (I assume this is the punishment for missing the ladies class) but when I walked in my Yoga Instructor friend was there. I hadn’t seen her in a while and it has been months since we were in the same class. Then who walked in? Yeah Wonder Woman Jackie! Yes that is right I got to work out with Jackie. That has been even longer since Jackie and I were in the same class (she is usually in the class before the women’s class so I see her but don’t work out with her). I missed my little group and I was excited. Then the best news ever, the noon class was oddly going to be all women. Yeah that’s right Coach Keidy got a double dose of the ladies yesterday.
Anyways, I am hoping to take some photos on Friday and I will try to post them as it is fall in New England (I still argue that there are days that it looks like the original England so there is nothing new about it). I also got a photo printed in an actual magazine so I am hoping that trend continues as I would like to have a little income from my hobby (even if it is just to pay for equipment). Well here is hoping you have a spooktaclur Halloween and a grand Día de Muertos!
So during this time when I am forced to sit and think some odd things have come up in my mind. Addiction, love, passion are all things that come from the same space. We all have these things and some of us express them in destructive ways but others focus that same passion and energy into healthy things. I have an addiction to fitness. I always have. There is something in the competition of whatever that drives me. When I got sick a few years back it put me into a depression and I gained weight. I have had a lot of time to look over my life. When I was in high school I was happy on the track. When I lived in Austin I would go out every single day and ride my bike. It was a type of meditation and calm. Rain, shine, wind, Saturday, it didn’t matter to me what day it was or what the weather was. In the cold I put on long pants and in the heat I put on shorts and packed extra water. I have been doing CrossFit for 6 months now and it is my meditation. It is my peace in a world of chaos. This injury has slowed me down but I am not out. I do push-ups at home and I do one legged squats at my desk. I was down for a full week and the horror of stopping was so over whelming that it is unexplainable. My trainer said she would get a program together for me so that I didn’t use my foot. It is so great when you find others who understand your need to move and push yourself. The probability that I will be out for most of the summer is very high but I am going to fight it. In talking with the doctor he said take it easy for 3 weeks and he will check in with me. Next week I go back for him to see my foot. I have done everything and more than what he said. Rest, Ice, Compress, and Elevate and repeat. My swelling has gone down on my foot and I am hopeful that he will take the original estimate of 8 week and reduce it.
I did go to the box this week and I think it was the first time I was sad to not do burpees. Yes that is the first time and the last time you will ever see that. I am hoping to go on Friday as well with my ladies. So here is to a new week, a new lease on life, and the ability to do more today than I did yesterday. Cheers and happy lifting!
This week was interesting. We did a 2 one rep max days (this is where you find the max weight you can lift and can either make you feel like Wonder Woman or a kid). I love these as I usually feel pretty strong afterwards then I make the mistake of looking around. I suddenly realize the ladies I workout with are the understudies for Wonder Woman, Cat Woman, and possibly Bat Girl. Wonder Woman (a.k.a. Nurse Jackie) got a PR (personal record) for her front squat and Bat Girl (Heather B, yes like the Spice Girls but better) always amazes me with her progress. Yes I know it is like Stan Lee’s nightmare in my head where everyone is a super hero but you have to be your own hero. You can’t wait for someone else to come along and be your hero. That is what CrossFit is about, be your own competition.
This coming week I am focusing on my eating behaviors (again I know) and trying to bring my lunch every day. I find when I do this I eat better and I don’t snack as much. We have a guy that is like a mini mart and has all kinds of bad stuff that is super tasty. I am also going to try and take some fitness shots of my coach and one of the biggest super hero’s I know, Miss Keidy! Yeah she has agreed to be my test subject as I try out fitness/athlete photography. If all works out I can try to expand to other athlete’s. I love my macro photography but I am trying to figure out where I really fit in the photography world. I am hoping that the two things I love to do can intersect. If you have ever seen a CrossFit athlete (check out Lindy Barber or Camille Leblanc-Bazinet) you can see how this is a unique photo challenge. Hopefully I can capture the fun and excitement that Keidy brings to the CrossFit community.
Here’s hoping that next week will bring healthy eating and some great photos! Cheers…
This week was interesting. I got to the gym on the weekend and I had a guy that was doing squats wrong and he was counting out loud (how weird is that). I said “No rep” under my breath because I figured if he was counting out loud he might need some help. He stopped and said “What do you mean no rep” at which point I said, “Your form is not correct and you can hurt yourself. I am surprised that no had mentioned this to you.” This got the attention of the Green Lantern looking dude behind me who said “Yeah I told him that but he didn’t listen to me”. The squat guy was a little upset that I no rep’d him but hey if you lift right you might be able to lift more than you think and not hurt yourself. Anywho, I base lined my chin up and pull-up, 55 lbs is my delta (how much more weight I have to pull so I can do a strict pull-up as kipping is not allowed at the gym). I was pretty excited about that as when I first started going to the gym in August I had a delta of 120. I also had another issue with mangos. Yes mangos and I have a long standing feud. They are delicious but I cannot touch my face to them (lips are the biggest issue as I usually do not rub mango on my forehead I mean I am not weird). This simple thing causes a slight allergic reaction which takes several days to clear up. Yes, mango. Freakin’ delicious fruit!
The weather has been getting better here so we started running at the box. Yeah we ran a few times outside (Rain or shine as the coach said). I even got to push a sled which is my favorite. We even had a whole WOD that was just running on Friday. Warmup was running technique and then sprints ever 30 seconds. Yeah we all complained but I think we were glad to be getting sun on our skin. It’s been a really long winter up here in New England so any temp over 50 degrees is more than welcome in my book.
This week I am going to try working on my kipping pull-ups in the down time at the box (anytime between the strength piece of the workouts or time after the workout). I am again going to try to cut back on my wheat in-take and of course, no mango (damn it). I have also been working on my shoulder mobility as it is not great since I work at a desk all day. Hopefully the weather will be nice this coming week and we will be able to get out more. That is all for this week. Stay healthy and get out and enjoy the spring as your body and mind will thank you…