One of the best lessons I have learned is that you have to believe in yourself or no one else will. People say it but they never explain it. Here is what I have learned. You have to believe in yourself and realize that all those feelings you have, anger, peace, love, hate, frustration, guilt, all of it is just a feeling. At the end of the day that is all it is. What you do with it is what makes you who you are. Fear can destroy you and can lead to anger which can lead you to frustration. So how do you deal with that? Wow, glad you asked. It is not easy but I realize that it is just a feeling. Nothing comes out of it until I act or don’t act on it. You have to ask why do I feel this way and how do I keep it or change it. When I feel fear I try to figure out why and push through it. Fear is an odd feeling and one of the few that really limit us. Anger and other negative feelings are similar. You have to figure out why you feel that way and change it. Here is one of the things I have started doing about once a week. I leave a positive note for someone to find or read. A few weeks ago I left one for a friend who was waiting for a decision. Last week I sent a note to someone who gives me a positive boost on a regular basis. To release the anger and negative pieces you have to find a way to find that inner peace and quiet the mind so you can see a way through.
As always my time working out has been my calm. Yeah it sounds weird but when I lift or run or even walk with the dog it sets my mind to quiet. I focus on my body, my form, what is happening around me and finally I settle in a place where I actually zone out. Yeah I zone out and I can usually solve some big questions in my life. Sometimes that is work sometimes it is personal but that moment of resolution and that time for reflection is so important. What I have seen over the past few weeks in doing the Whole Life Challenge is that I do not think I can eat sugar, wheat, or corn like I used to. I have felt better, healthier and oddly I feel mentally stronger than I have in a long time. Eric Thomas said it best “One day will be your day. One day can’t be your day if you give up. If you quit no day will be your day.” So don’t ever give up on yourself. You can be your hardest critic but you can also be your biggest supporter. So you quit before; well that is just an opportunity to start again. Figure out why did you quit? Once you answer that question then you can learn for that and move on. Every beginning is the end of something. What will you end to start again?
So I am coming up on my one year doing CrossFit. I started going every week in January and I have been on the Whole Life Challenge for a few weeks now. So busy at work doing different things so I have not been able to write anything. I have a vacation day coming up on Friday (Yes I am that person that takes off Halloween). I have gotten worse with my asthma (having to take my inhaler several times a day). This has been almost a month now where I have had issues but I am going to see someone in November (apparently getting an appointment with a specialist is almost as difficult as getting in to see a dermatologist). The paleo diet/lifestyle had been helpful as I am down 10 lbs and I am still eating really good food like Sticky Chicken. Now mind you I did not go full blown paleo as I eat brown rice but just not with every meal. I also have a cheat day to reward myself. How do you do a cheat day? Glad you asked, you decide on a given day and plan ahead for what you want to eat and then life gets in your way and you miss it and then you see homemade biscotti that you mother sends and you yell CHEAT DAY and eat 4. Yes that’s right that’s what happened which of course frightened Gary but hey it is Halloween month! Things have been going great at the box and yesterday I went to the noon class worried I would have to work out with a herd of boys (I assume this is the punishment for missing the ladies class) but when I walked in my Yoga Instructor friend was there. I hadn’t seen her in a while and it has been months since we were in the same class. Then who walked in? Yeah Wonder Woman Jackie! Yes that is right I got to work out with Jackie. That has been even longer since Jackie and I were in the same class (she is usually in the class before the women’s class so I see her but don’t work out with her). I missed my little group and I was excited. Then the best news ever, the noon class was oddly going to be all women. Yeah that’s right Coach Keidy got a double dose of the ladies yesterday.
Anyways, I am hoping to take some photos on Friday and I will try to post them as it is fall in New England (I still argue that there are days that it looks like the original England so there is nothing new about it). I also got a photo printed in an actual magazine so I am hoping that trend continues as I would like to have a little income from my hobby (even if it is just to pay for equipment). Well here is hoping you have a spooktaclur Halloween and a grand Día de Muertos!
This week was interesting. We did a 2 one rep max days (this is where you find the max weight you can lift and can either make you feel like Wonder Woman or a kid). I love these as I usually feel pretty strong afterwards then I make the mistake of looking around. I suddenly realize the ladies I workout with are the understudies for Wonder Woman, Cat Woman, and possibly Bat Girl. Wonder Woman (a.k.a. Nurse Jackie) got a PR (personal record) for her front squat and Bat Girl (Heather B, yes like the Spice Girls but better) always amazes me with her progress. Yes I know it is like Stan Lee’s nightmare in my head where everyone is a super hero but you have to be your own hero. You can’t wait for someone else to come along and be your hero. That is what CrossFit is about, be your own competition.
This coming week I am focusing on my eating behaviors (again I know) and trying to bring my lunch every day. I find when I do this I eat better and I don’t snack as much. We have a guy that is like a mini mart and has all kinds of bad stuff that is super tasty. I am also going to try and take some fitness shots of my coach and one of the biggest super hero’s I know, Miss Keidy! Yeah she has agreed to be my test subject as I try out fitness/athlete photography. If all works out I can try to expand to other athlete’s. I love my macro photography but I am trying to figure out where I really fit in the photography world. I am hoping that the two things I love to do can intersect. If you have ever seen a CrossFit athlete (check out Lindy Barber or Camille Leblanc-Bazinet) you can see how this is a unique photo challenge. Hopefully I can capture the fun and excitement that Keidy brings to the CrossFit community.
Here’s hoping that next week will bring healthy eating and some great photos! Cheers…
What if you were not promised tomorrow? How would you live your life differently? What would you do differently if you had a chance to start your life over again? Why? Why not start changes in your life now. This is how I started this year. I wanted to be healthier, I wanted to be stronger, I was tired of being tired. I didn’t want to be that sad old lady who sits and complains about what she used to do. So I got up and did something about it. Nothing holds you back but yourself. As much as I hated finding my weakness in the Open I love when someone says “You can’t do that” and of course my favorite “You can’t do that because you are a girl”. Best way to drive me forward is to tell me you can’t or “no that’s not possible”. It’s only impossible because you believe it is so, I do not always share those same believes. I have seen strong amazing women do things that men cannot. I know it will be a long hard road but the hardest battles are the best ones to win. I did not get out of shape in a month or 6 months so I do not believe that I can get back in shape in a month (at least not in a healthy way). This is a long term plan. I do not work out to get thin or look cute in some “skinny” pants. I work out because I want to be better, healthier, and stronger. That is one key piece to CrossFit. It is not about counting calories or about looking cute or quick weight loss. CrossFit is about being stronger today than you were yesterday. It’s about eating nutrient dense food that is not chemically processed. It’s about being healthy. Can you loose weight in CrossFit, yes but it is about doing it in a healthy time frame (not a week or 2 weeks).
On to the work for the week, well I missed 2 days (Thursday and Friday). I did go to support the box on Saturday to honor the loss of 2 fire fighters. The WOD was really fun and it was my first time climbing the rope more than one pull. I made it to the midpoint on the rope (our ropes are 17 feet long) since I had a mental block on getting higher than that. It was super fun as it was a merger of all the classes during the week into one session. It was great! I still have the goal of working on my pull-ups/chin ups. Hope everyone has a great week!